My Life is Small but it’s Big Enough for Me, 2022
8.5 x 11 signed print on textured paper.
Scanned and printed to archival quality by Josh King of Sacramento Giclee
8.5 x 11 signed print on textured paper.
Scanned and printed to archival quality by Josh King of Sacramento Giclee
Every day on my route home from my first art teaching job, I would pass a burgundy mustang with a for-sale sign, parked outside an auto detailing shop on a fast-paced one way street in Sacramento.
I was deeply unhappy at the school I was teaching in, most of the teachers were burned out and in survival mode. In my disassociative episodes on my drive home, I’d pass by this mustang and imagine myself buying it and driving away, leaving everything behind. I was so afraid to admit that I needed to make some big changes in my life.
My then boyfriend of 7 years would get an opportunity in another city that offered me an easy way out of the job I hated, but it would be another decision made for me, instead of me figuring out my own path. We would break up shortly after we moved together, and I returned home to sacramento with my head low. Ashamed of my need for safety and stability that conflicted so heavily with my ex-boyfriends need for adventure and spontenaity.
During the process of completing this drawing, I was invited out to a show in San Francisco to see Miyah Folick, who has a song titled Ordinary. The words of the song go:
Our life is small but it's big enough for me
I don't need any fancy things
I can’t have it all
And I wouldn’t want to
This song really resonated with me as I held the frustration of years of feeling self-consious for my contentment with my simple routines and structured habits.
Original drawn in colored pencil on cardstock, 8.5x11